I sit in silence; my brain kicks in How did I get here in life? Not going anywhere, not doing too much As my illness gives me strife My every day seems simple I sit, I read, I watch TV and sometimes like to write I don’t spend long out of the house For my energy is slight Most of my day I feel drowsy and rest is all I seek I enjoy a plod with our cheeky dog But don’t plan much past the same week I like to meet new people But don’t ask me what I do It fills me with great angst I know you’ll judge me too You sit and laugh with me and we set the world to rights But then you had to quiz me About not working, to you I look alright You only knew me a short time And you think you know my life You will never know the suffering The exhaustion day and night My weakness as I try to walk, my inability to talk Loss of thinking, loss of focus, loss of erm…what’s that word again? I enjoyed your company in part But then I saw your different light You forget we’re all just human So different in our own right You disrespected me and left your manners behind But don’t worry once you’ve left here You’re out of sight, out of mind I sit in silence my brain kicks in Thoughts running through my head When will I make it out again? What ventures lie ahead? Maybe meet a better person Someone caring, someone kind, someone true But for now I rest, relax, find calm Daydreaming over a brew.