8pm Wednesday night my partner announced he was off to bed. Uh oh, he never goes to bed this early. Somethings wrong? Headache, temperature, bad stomach…yes, he’s sick! My mind races in a whirl of apprehension: I’ll have to cook; wash up; I’ll have to see he is ok; take extra trips upstairs with drinks… Continue reading Caring for my carer
This month marks 2 years since I was labelled with chronic fatigue. So, what’s changed?… Well, I still wake up every day feeling like I should be going to bed. I’m endlessly exhausted and weak. I constantly yawn and breathe heavy when I move about. On a morning my brain craves for stimulation, mainly internet… Continue reading Happy Anniversary …not!
When my energy runs out, the effect on my brain is immense. I refer to ‘my brain’ in third person as I feel this symptom is out of my control. My brain starts to error. I become restless. I try to relax but my brain searches for something to dig into: a Sudoku; a crime… Continue reading Tired but wired
I’ve been pretty wiped out this month. It took a full week of cleaning and tidying to prep for my mother’s 70th birthday. The family all had a great time, but it took its toll. It was then the dreaded ladies’ week and this time I just couldn’t get moving. My brain malfunctioned; I didn’t… Continue reading Health update
This is me replying to my friend who’s asking what Kendal Mint cake is. It’s another example of classic brain fog. I mean who can’t remember Everest? Ha.
As soon as my partner told me we were going out for a meal with friends on Saturday night, I tried to stay calm. This is a good thing. Something to look forward to. Something I have been longing for. It was no good, my worrying mind dominated my thoughts. Since lockdown lifted, I had… Continue reading Letting Loose
When lockdown hit, I was in the best position. Unable to go anywhere, unable to see friends, unable to go out in the car. Being unwell this was my new normal, but now everyone was with me. I was under no pressure to keep up appearances, there was nowhere I needed to be, no-one coming… Continue reading My lockdown love affair
This morning I woke up in my usual haze. In my restlessness, I started to scroll social media and came across a fitness ad. It was a guy doing planks. ”Ooh I can do planks!” I thought to myself, forgetting for a moment that I haven’t actually done one for years. My brain seemed to… Continue reading Lunchtime Laugh
Every night I had the best sleep yet I woke up like it was 3am. Drowsy. I was ready for bed again. It was always 3am, every minute of every day. So spaced out and having to dodge the feeling of needing my bed. At best I was able to hold a conversation and maybe… Continue reading It all started when..